sweetestsurrender | { Hardest Thing To Say Meme }

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{ Hardest Thing To Say Meme }

Sometimes the hardest things to say are also the most important. It doesn't matter how much it scares you to do so, it's finally time to be honest.

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01. I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE Unfortunately, you can't keep lying to your partner/friend/family anymore. You just don't feel the same for them anymore.
02. I WOULD KILL YOU The person who means so much to you has done something completely unforgivable and now it's time to make sure they know where they stand. You would kill them if you ever got the chance.
03. I LOVE YOU, BUT... A bittersweet love confession. You know you love this person more than anything, but you're not sure you can give them what they need.
04. I DON'T TRUST YOU No matter how you feel about this person, you really can't trust them anymore.
05. SACRIFICE You're going to sacrifice yourself, for the person you're talking with or for the good of all humanity. You want them to know the reasons and that there's no stopping you.
06. TROUBLE You're in trouble and you might not make it through. You need to let at least one person know how you feel before it's too late though.
07. CRIME CONFESSION You did something you weren't proud of and now it's time to admit it.
08. DEMONS We've all got our demons and we've all got our own personal nightmares we have to face, but this time? You can't hold it all back.
09. I'M PREGNANT... Now's not the best time for it maybe or maybe you're just nervous how your partner will react, but they need to hear it.
10. BETRAYAL You've betrayed this person and you have to tell them the truth, no more running from it
11. CHEATED You've been unfaithful and it's time to tell your lover.
12. BROKEN That's it. You've had it. You are entirely broken and tired of everything.
13. AFRAID Something has you deathly afraid and you need to talk about it.
14. HELP ME You need someone to help you, bad. You can't do it alone anymore, you've tried.
15. I'M SORRY You said something or did something horrible and now it's time to ask for forgiveness.
16. YOU WERE A MISTAKE Sorry, but whoever you're talking to was the biggest mistake of your life or maybe it was just something you did together.
17. NOT WHO I SAY I AM You're so far from who they think you are, you need to finally tell the truth.
18. LET'S RUN AWAY You want to just get out, leave everything behind and be with this one person for the rest of your life.
19. ASHAMED Either you're ashamed of something they have done or something you did, either way you need to bring it up.
20. CAN'T REMEMBER The person standing in front of you looks so happy to see you, so relieved, but how do you tell them you can't remember a thing about them?
21. HOW COULD YOU You don't understand how they could treat you like they have, do what they have done when you've done nothing but be good to them.
22. YOUR CHOICE Either choose an option from above, mix and match, or make up your own idea.

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"Don't usually listen to rumours." Duo took up his shot glass and examined it for a moment, biding his time while he picked through all the things he knew about Wufei or thought he knew. If he was honest, he wasn't all that happy to learn things this way. He liked when information came to him naturally. But Wufei seemed to want to do this and even seemed to find it fun, which in itself amused Duo.

"Always thought you didn't know what a sense of humour was. That you'd deliberately shattered your funny bone when you were a kid and practiced that scowl in the mirror until you'd got it down to perfection. You'd always glare when I laughed. So... really didn't think you knew how to laugh! Why was that?" He pulled some cheese off of his pizza. "We'd all had a shit time of it. But were you really that grumpy when I'd laugh?"

Wufei quirked a brow at that, but didn't say anything as he waited for Duo's question, chuckling softly as he did. "The truth?" he hesitated, glancing down at his shot glass. "I was feeling a great number of things I didn't understand, doing things that were entirely out of character for me, prior to my wife's death. You were confusing, and I worried you might distract me from what I thought was my ultimate destiny: Dying at Khushrenada's hand." And just for good measure, or maybe to take the edge off his nerves, he tossed the shot back and poured himself another.

He leveled his gaze on Duo. "You don't listen to rumors, but you do hear them, don't you? I assume you're more connected than any of us to what sort of thoughts are swirling around in the darker corners of humanity."

They all were feeling things. Duo had still been wrapped up in the Maxwell Church Massacre but had tried his damn best to connect with everyone. But had been made to feel like the biggest pain in the ass. And because he was more than capable of biting his nose off to spite his face, he'd played up to their expectations of him more often than not.

"That's fair. Guess I was 'a bit much', huh?" Duo gave a low laugh and tore at his pizza, popping the pieces into his mouth to chew thoughtfully.

"Bad assumption, Wufei." He gave him a lopsided grin. "Why would I care about the 'dark corners of humanity'? Had enough darkness in my life. I don't go seeking it out." Not these days anyway. "I've heard a few things... Take you and Sally. Always thought you guys'd end up shacked up. Why'd you let an amazing woman like that slip by you?"

"A bit," Wufei agreed with a chuckle, and tossed back the shot when his assumption was proven wrong, following it with a bite of pizza that he nearly choked on when Duo suggested he was with Sally, of all people. "Sally?" he asked, as if Duo had managed to grow a second head while he wasn't looking.

Then again, as assumptions went, it wasn't so far out there. He shook his head a little. "I suppose equal parts disinterest and cowardice, with a large helping of social inadequacy," he offered lamely. "Why did you think I'd want to date her? Because she's the only one who can put up with me?" He smirked, but he was blushing, too.

"Partly that." Duo agreed and knocked back his own shot. He'd known his assumption had been wrong but his curiosity over why had forced him to ask. "She seemed your type? Strong, independent, and yeah, more than capable of kickin you into line. Not the only one who thought it either. Kinda amazed just how wrong I was was. Usually good at this!"

He chuckled at that, pouring them both refills of whiskey. "I suppose, if she were a man she would be," he kept his gaze on the drink, managed through sheer force of will not to blush. "I suppose I'm harder to read than I thought. Sally seemed to pick up on it quickly enough."

"I figured it was a 'both ways' kinda deal." Duo replied leisurely, nodding when he was poured more of the whiskey but focused a bit more on his pizza. Which was in a shambles by now. He'd managed to tear it up almost completely into pizza spaghetti... Which was fine, he could still eat it.

"You were married, guess that was the bit I was hung up on." He grinned over, though Wufei was finding something awfully interesting in the bottom of his shot glass to notice. "That another assumption I fucked up?"

"I wouldn't know what to do with a woman if I found one in my bed," he admitted, and this time his cheeks did color a little. "It was an arranged marriage, we'd been promised to one another when we were still infants. I suppose they assumed we'd figure it out in time, if we lived long enough," he shrugged his shoulders. "So, yes, I suppose you did 'fuck it up' a little."

He looked up then, offering Duo a small smile. "But I've probably fucked up this one -- that you and Hilde were together."

"Not completely... We tried. But we're better as friends." Since they were being honest then there was no point in lying.

"She wanted more than I could give... She knew better than most what we'd all gone through, but I couldn't be what she needed right then, y'know? So we're still friends. We meet every once in a while to get somethin to eat or hangout. But as a couple? Nah, I fucked that one up." He'd been a broken mess and while Hilde had wanted to try and 'heal' him, he just couldn't keep up with a 'normal' relationship. It had fallen apart pretty quickly.

He nodded a little as he listened. "We were all jagged edges at the end of the war," he agreed quietly. It was exactly how he'd ended up in Mariemaia's army -- he hadn't been able to handle the peace, hadn't been able to connect to anyone or anything after having lost so much so quickly.

He took his shot even though he wasn't supposed to, according to the rules of the game he'd made up, and poured himself a refill before taking another bite of pizza. "I'm glad it didn't drive her away completely. Having someone that can understand what we've been through is a boon."

"We ended things... okay enough. Took a few months for her to come round, but I'm glad I didn't lose a friend. They're hard to come by." Or tolerate. Duo could befriend most anyone if he put his mind to it. But keeping people around him? There were only so many he could stand to have around for any prolonged length of time.

"... There was one rumour I'd heard. Never had the balls to ask if it was true." He wasn't sure if he'd even say it now, but since he'd started he knew there was no way he could back down now. Duo had set himself up, so he may as well carry on and hope Wufei didn't storm out... or spontaneously combust. "You and Khushrenada...?" Since Wufei had no admitted to liking guys, this was one rumour that could hold some weight to it now. "Did you and him...?"

He went positively crimson at the suggestion, and tossed back a shot. "In my defense, he was extremely charismatic, and I was entirely unprepared for the reality of facing him. He managed to corner me into a kiss, and there was no hope for me after that," he smiled wryly, glancing up at Duo to gauge his reaction. "It seemed at the time that he knew everything about me, but I realize now that he was simply more experienced."

Duo, for how animated he could be, could also be very still when he chose to. And right then he was. He showed a near complete lack of emotion as he listened to Wufei. Because he wasn't entirely sure how he felt about hearing that rumour being true. He remembered knocking someone on their ass for even suggesting it and distantly wondered if he could find that person and apologise.

His lashes lowered and he looked down at his mess of pizza. Most of which was gone aside from the crust.

"I should get another slice. You want another slice, Wufei?" Duo scooted forward and put his shot glass down before getting to his feet and padding off to the kitchen to dump the cold crusts and grab another two slices of pizza.

Wufei dropped his gaze, swallowing visibly. "Yeah. Another slice would be good," he agreed as his smile evaporated. He focused on pouring himself another shot while Duo was busy getting more pizza, and wondered just how badly he'd fucked up by sharing that.

Not fucked up. Just needing a moment to process.

Duo ended up just leaning with his hands on the counter, lost in thought for a long moment.

Could they really be blamed for the things they did in the past? Wufei was his own person and, by the sound of it, had been used by that asshole. So why did it make Duo feel... He shook his head and pulled himself together. Grabbed the two slices of pizza he really just didn't feel like eating right then, and carried them back out.

With a sigh he dropped back down onto the sofa and set the plate in his lap after he'd kicked his feet up onto the table, narrowly missing his shot glass.

"One for you." He grabbed one of the slices and placed it on Wufei's plate. Then made himself grin and grabbed the other. "And one for me!"

"Thank you," Wufei replied, smiling a little as he watched Duo for a moment. He knew the other well enough to recognize the mask for what it was, picking up his slice and taking a bite as he considered his next question carefully, and decided that being a coward was simply unacceptable.

"Are you angry that I slept with him, or just shocked that I could manage to forge an actual human connection?" He kept his tone light, half-teasing and half-serious so it would be easy for Duo to deflect the question if he wanted to. People often thought Wufei wasn't very good at socializing, but when he cared for someone he could be downright sensitive.

Well, shit. They were playing a game after all. So of course Wufei would question his behaviour. The problem was... Duo wasn't entirely sure how to answer without looking like a dick.

He put his pizza down again, without having taken a bite, and kind of wished he had a dog. He could just throw the damn thing to the beast without having to move a muscle. Which was probably a bad reason to buy a dog...

"Neither." He finally admitted, once he was sure he wasn't going to open his mouth and start talking about the kinds of dogs that would enjoy pizza. "If I'm angry at anyone, it's him for takin advantage of you. And me for being..." Duo trailed off and gave a low, humourless laugh. "... It's stupid."

"What?" He demanded, straightening up as he shot Duo a scowl. He might not have been offended by the question, but this? "I was not taken advantage of," he completely missed the unsaid portion of that, his brain skipping tracks at the idea that he, that anyone could... That he would allow. Nope, couldn't even finish the thoughts. "I went to him. Repeatedly," he was going to die on this hill, apparently.

Duo glanced over with a frown. "You made it sound like that's what happened..." He stopped, bit down hard on his tongue and moved his plate aside so that he could lean forward and grab his shot glass.

Wrong assumptions meant he should drink, right? Misunderstandings too. He'd heard Wufei but hadn't quite understood. "My bad. Sorry, buddy. Didn't mean anythin by it." He knocked the drink back and refilled the glass. After a moments hesitation, he drank that one as well.

He shook his head, letting out a long sigh. "I didn't... why did it sound that way?" He didn't quite understand, and he knew that Duo's reaction was probably close to what anyone else would think, too. So if he wanted to avoid it if he ever told anyone else, it only made sense to find out how he'd given that impression.

And he was absolutely going to ignore the queasy feeling that had suddenly taken root in his stomach. It was definitely just the greasy pizza and whiskey, not any pesky sort of emotional baggage. He didn't have any of that, nope.

"Doesn't matter, I'm just glad it wasn't something you didn't want." Not that he'd actually believed that Wufei had been forced. Just manipulated. Treize was 'charismatic' and 'experienced' after all.

He gave himself another refill before he settled back again with a sigh of his own.

"Think it's your turn. Or are you done with drinkin games now?" Duo asked with a crooked smile. He'd not be surprised if he'd managed to accidentally mess things up. All he could do is apologise if he had.

Wufei sighed softly, sizing Duo up for a moment. He didn't exactly plan to tell anyone else about Treize, so technically Duo was right. It didn't matter, but it certainly gave his brain something to nibble on.

He shook his head, turning his attention to his shot glass as he considered his next question. "Alright," he considered his options, his phrasing. "You were once madly in love with Heero, but he never felt the same towards you." He wasn't sure if he hoped he was right or not.

Duo snorted a laugh. "Dumb crush isn't madly in love. There was maybe... a minute... where I thought it was love. I was probably just horny. But I'm no masochist, Wufei. I don't need to be told twice before I get the hint. No idea if he ever felt the same about me. He never showed any interest. I never asked him."

And that was about it. Once upon a time he'd thought maybe it was love. But since he'd had no idea what love even felt like, it soon became clear that it wasn't actually love but hormones. Horny teenage hormones. Heero Yuy was a damn fine looking man, after all.

Wufei chuckled at that, quirking a brow. "This is Heero we're talking about. How do you know he didn't like you if you never asked?" he followed it quickly with his shot, and refilled it again. They were putting it away fast enough that he was starting to feel it, but he didn't mind. It helped him get over himself enough to be as open and honest as he wanted to. "Who else have you had crushes on?"

Duo was definitely feeling a buzz. He'd forgotten to pick up his pizza again but it was just as well, he wasn't really interested in eating it anymore.

"Because it's Heero. If he thought his emotions were compromised he'd have killed me." And wasn't that a sad piece of logic right there. A testament to just how screwed up they all were. He wasn't the one Heero had wanted to kill. Relena had been.

"Hilde..." Kind of. But he'd already explained that one away. As for anyone else... There was no way he was drunk enough to answer that. Especially not now.

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