sweetestsurrender | { Hardest Thing To Say Meme }

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{ Hardest Thing To Say Meme }

Sometimes the hardest things to say are also the most important. It doesn't matter how much it scares you to do so, it's finally time to be honest.

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01. I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE Unfortunately, you can't keep lying to your partner/friend/family anymore. You just don't feel the same for them anymore.
02. I WOULD KILL YOU The person who means so much to you has done something completely unforgivable and now it's time to make sure they know where they stand. You would kill them if you ever got the chance.
03. I LOVE YOU, BUT... A bittersweet love confession. You know you love this person more than anything, but you're not sure you can give them what they need.
04. I DON'T TRUST YOU No matter how you feel about this person, you really can't trust them anymore.
05. SACRIFICE You're going to sacrifice yourself, for the person you're talking with or for the good of all humanity. You want them to know the reasons and that there's no stopping you.
06. TROUBLE You're in trouble and you might not make it through. You need to let at least one person know how you feel before it's too late though.
07. CRIME CONFESSION You did something you weren't proud of and now it's time to admit it.
08. DEMONS We've all got our demons and we've all got our own personal nightmares we have to face, but this time? You can't hold it all back.
09. I'M PREGNANT... Now's not the best time for it maybe or maybe you're just nervous how your partner will react, but they need to hear it.
10. BETRAYAL You've betrayed this person and you have to tell them the truth, no more running from it
11. CHEATED You've been unfaithful and it's time to tell your lover.
12. BROKEN That's it. You've had it. You are entirely broken and tired of everything.
13. AFRAID Something has you deathly afraid and you need to talk about it.
14. HELP ME You need someone to help you, bad. You can't do it alone anymore, you've tried.
15. I'M SORRY You said something or did something horrible and now it's time to ask for forgiveness.
16. YOU WERE A MISTAKE Sorry, but whoever you're talking to was the biggest mistake of your life or maybe it was just something you did together.
17. NOT WHO I SAY I AM You're so far from who they think you are, you need to finally tell the truth.
18. LET'S RUN AWAY You want to just get out, leave everything behind and be with this one person for the rest of your life.
19. ASHAMED Either you're ashamed of something they have done or something you did, either way you need to bring it up.
20. CAN'T REMEMBER The person standing in front of you looks so happy to see you, so relieved, but how do you tell them you can't remember a thing about them?
21. HOW COULD YOU You don't understand how they could treat you like they have, do what they have done when you've done nothing but be good to them.
22. YOUR CHOICE Either choose an option from above, mix and match, or make up your own idea.

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Wufei swallowed heavily, watching Duo closely for a long moment. He took his shot and threw caution to the wind. If he fucked everything up, well, he'd just be right back where he started, but Duo deserved his honesty. Especially if he was going to stay here for any length of time.

"Me," he said firmly, slamming the shot glass back down on the table. "But I've always been attracted to people I can't have." Not long-term, anyway.

Duo bit down hard on the inside of his cheek, hard enough he could taste the coppery tang of blood on his tongue. If it had been anyone else he might have thought they were joking at his expense. But Wufei didn't sound like he was joking. And he would never have joked about this... So where did that leave Duo? How was he supposed to reply to that after he'd just literally shoved his foot in his mouth?

So he took a deep breath... and sighed.

"Can you not?" He spoke in a deceptively calm voice. "Table didn't do anythin to deserve you slamming it like that. And who said you can't have me? What you can't have is any more whiskey if you're gonna try breaking my glasses and furniture."

He quirked a brow, gaze darting up to meet Duo's. He held the other's gaze for a long moment as his heart tried to crawl right up his throat. He swallowed heavily again, forcing it back down into place. "The stuffed silks that call themselves my clan elders, I suppose, but I snapped that leash long ago. I only pretend to listen to them when it suits me." He didn't trust his hand to stay steady enough to pour another shot, so he left the glass on the table, ignored it even. "So was it a lie of omission, then? When you didn't admit to a crush on me?"

"No. You asked if I had a crush on anyone. I don't..." because it hasn't been a crush. With Heero it had been lust. But Wufei... It was Wufei he'd been mad for. He'd teased mercilessly just for the hopes of a little attention, maybe a smile, maybe even a laugh. Duo had given up on that idea after the war. Now, with the new knowledge he had, he realised he'd never stood a chance. There was no way on hell he could have held a candle to someone like Treize. He'd never even been in the running.

So maybe he'd felt a twinge of jealousy a moment ago? For his past self who had lost before he'd even realised it was a race.

"I'd cared for you a bit more than just a crush, Wufei..." Duo, when he spoke, his voice was..quieter. Almost gentle. His eyes had closed again, almost afraid to look anymore.

He felt his world tilt a little, pain flashing through his chest as his gaze dropped and tears burned at his eyes. "Then I'm sorry I came," he whispered, clearing his throat as he pushed to his feet and turned to leave. "I won't hurt you like this again," he promised, already on his way to the door and willing himself not to cry until he was alone.

He'd known it was a terrible idea, but some perverse, masochistic part of himself had needed to know for sure. Needed to crush out the last hopes he'd had of any kind of happiness for himself.

Now that wasn't good enough, was it? Wufei had wanted him to be honest. Had kind of made him sound like aan asshole for keeping it to himself. So when he admitted his feelings, when he told the truth, the bastard went and tried to run away? Duo didn't think so.

He was on his feet and on the move before he had any conscious thought behind it. In a few long strides he'd reached Wufei. He'd grabbed him, turned him and pushed him up against the wall.

And then Duo dropped his hands. He stood in the others way, blocking him from leaving for the moment, but he wasn't going to force himself on Wufei. All he wanted was for him to stop...

"Why..." Duo shook his head slowly, still not fully comprehending what was going on here. "... You're not fucking with my feelings, I know you'd never do that. Not deliberately. But you started this, Wufei. You lead me down this path. You wanted the truth. So why the fuck are you running away from it? From me?"

It took considerable self control not to react to that with violence. Every instinct he had screamed for retaliation, but he let himself be shoved up against the wall. Stayed there, with tears on his cheeks as he met Duo's gaze.

He gathered up what little courage he had left. "It's not past-tense for me, Maxwell," he said softly, maybe there was a little bitterness there, but he didn't think that was too far out of line. "I had foolishly hoped there might be something more than friendship here, but if that's all you can offer me I will gladly take it. I only ask you give me the chance to gather what's left of my dignity in private." Let him mourn the loss before he'd be able to maintain the boundaries friendship demanded.

Edited 2021-11-24 04:13 (UTC)

"No." The word left his lips before he could stop it. No, he wasn't going to let Wufei leave. Why the hell would he do that? Duo would probably have reached out by now but he didn't want to fight. He'd seen the flash in Wufei's eyes, it was part of why he'd dropped his hands and hadn't actually pinned him against the wall.

"... If it was past tense for me, you think I'd have gotten jealous like I did before? C'mon, Wufei. Think. What kinda friend let's another guy friend sleep in their lap and hold their hand? Outta the blue without asking a damn thing? I don't do this with everyone, y'know? In fact just one. You."

He frowned tightly when he was told no, biting back his knee-jerk reaction and forcing himself to stay put, listen. And it was a damn good thing he was leaning on a wall because his knees were absolutely trying to give out on him, all the sudden. He searched Duo's face, as if he somehow suspected it was a prank, or a lie, or... but Duo would never do something like that.

He reached up, grabbing Duo by the front of his shirt and tugging him closer. "I'm going to be extremely angry about this the second I stop being relieved," he growled.

"Why?" he didn't resist being tugged closer, Duo moved easily enough. Would have moved easily if Wufei had pushed him to get out in fact.

"I didn't lie to you, Wufei. You just never asked what my feelings were now." Duo reached out then, he took Wufei by the hips and moved closer. "Don't be angry with me. Just kiss me and lets make up instead."

"Because I'm too goddamn socially inept to read anything," he huffed. In retrospect, with all their cards now on the table, it was pretty damn obvious what Duo had been getting at but in the moment he'd read everything in exactly the wrong way.

His grip on Duo's shirt loosened as his hips were grabbed, and he leaned in to do exactly as requested. He tilted his head, pressed their lips together, and sighed softly into the gesture. It was like a pile of gundanium bricks had been plucked off his shoulders and the tears kicked back into gear, entirely without his permission.

Duo didn't bother replying, there didn't seem to be a point. Wufei had done the same thing he had. He'd misunderstood his words. Hadn't heard what Duo had been trying to say. Had probably already decided for himself that it was going to fail so had missed everything completely. Luckily Duo wasn't about to let things go that easily.

He loosened his hands upon Wufei's hips and stretched his arms up to hook them around Wufei's neck. They kissed... The kiss should have been sweet, but the salty taste of tears ruined the effect some. He gave it a few moments before he moved away from lips to press kisses to Wufei's cheeks. Kissing away the tears. "They better be happy tears. I'm not that bad a kisser." He kept his tone gentle and teasing between those kisses.

His grip on Duo's shirt faded as soon as he'd convinced himself that this was, in fact, real. His arms went down, winding around Duo's hips and holding him close as he let the kiss linger.

When Duo kissed his tears away, he let out a laugh. "Will you accept relieved?" he replied, sniffling a little. "I thought I'd ruined everything, all over again. It's my secret talent, you know. Making the worst out of a good situation."

"I'll accept it." Duo kept on kissing, even while Wufei spoke. He kissed each cheek and ended with Wufei's lips once more.

"Haven't ruined anythin, Wu. I'm still here. Not going anywhere." Not if he got to be like this with someone he'd genuinely cared about.

He closed his eyes as Duo kissed away the tears, returning the one to his lips with a smile and pressing their foreheads together as they parted. "Good," he murmured softly, letting out a long sigh. "I apologize, for not being as... to the point as I should have."

"I apologise for not bein more obnoxious about my feelings." Duo chuckled and let his own eyes close before he pulled his arms back from around Wufei. He stopped once his hands were resting at either side of Wufei's neck, resting at the curve where it met his shoulders. "And I'm sorry I upset you." And made him cry. That had hurt to see. He'd never wanted to be the cause of someone elses sadness...

Wufei hummed, as if he had to think things over. "I suppose I can forgive you," he replied with a little smile. "But this means there's a secret I must tell you," and he paused there for dramatic effect, his smile tugging a little wider. "I have always been somewhat of a crybaby." Unless he'd misunderstood the meaning of the word, but he was pretty sure he hadn't.

Duo waited for this secret to be shared, and when it was, he laughed softly and lifted his hands to cup Wufei's face between his palms.

"I prefer making you smile. Crybaby or not, I wanna make you smile, Wu. Want you to be happy." And if he was the one who could do that, even better.

"Well, I'd say you're managing it handily right now," he replied, sliding his hands around to the small of Duo's back, tangling his fingers together to hold Duo against him comfortably. "Even without being a bit tipsy, I'd be very happy."

He moved a little closer with the pull of arms around him, then let go of Wufei's cheeks in favour of wrapping his own arms back around the others shoulders. He smiled, a bright, beaming smile. That's all he wanted to hear.

"That's all I ever wanted." To be the cause of happiness instead of sadness and pain. Duo didn't really want much from this world. But when it came to loved ones, his needs were very simple. Happiness and understanding.

He hummed happily, letting his gaze wander Duo's face, taking a moment to memorize it all over again. "I don't know the first thing about dating, so you'll have to tell me when I'm over-thinking things, or doing something that doesn't make sense to you," he murmured. "And I'll ask you to explain if I realize you're doing something I don't understand." He and Treize hadn't been able to date properly, and their relationship had been more physical than anything. With Nataku it had been a marriage in name only, with none of the respect or affection a union should have.

Going slower was going to be strange, but he was sure he would enjoy it. Duo was, after all, well worth the wait.

Duo didn't mind the way Wufei was looking at him. It did, however, cause his cheeks to warm up quite nicely. He wasn't someone who blushed as a habit, but the scrutiny made him feel warm and... somehow loved. There was something in that dark eyed gaze that was tender in a way that made Duo's heart ache.

"I'm not much better." He admitted. "But we can work our way through it. Besides, we've already slept together, everythin else is a bonus." Duo winked, trying hard not to laugh. They'd slept in the strictest sense of the word and he was just teasing. Though now he found he was looking forward to when they turned in for the night. He'd planned on offering to put his body pillow between them for privacies sake. But now Duo knew he wouldn't be satisfied unless he was able to hold Wufei through the night. No pillow was going to come between him and that.

He tried not to laugh, he really did, but when Duo said it like that there was no hope for him. "I'm going to use that," he warned with a wicked grin, giving Duo a gentle squeeze. "The look on Sally's face will be absolutely priceless." And he leaned in for another little kiss, just because he could, because Duo was there, and his, and warm, and solid, and... he was just going to stop thinking now, because it was getting in the way of enjoying the moment.

"You've my permission to use it all you want." He said with a merry grin, delighted by the mental image of how Sally would react to that. He almost wished he could be there to see it.

But it was fine. He could live without seeing her expression because he had Wufei. He had those arms around him and lips warm upon his. Duo closed his eyes for a moment to better enjoy the kiss and the sweetness of it all.

Wufei lost himself in it, sliding his hands down and sinking his hands into the rear pockets on Duo's pants. Because that was something he'd always wanted to try.

And groaned in irritation when Duo's phone rang. He didn't know it, but the number the call came from was the one Quatre designated as his only-in-emergencies number.

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