sweetestsurrender | { The AU meme }

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{ The AU meme }

Ever played out something and then later wondered "What if?" Ever wondered what it'd be like to play your character a different way, but didn't feel like making a full thing dedicated to it? Now's your chance to play it out!

Using RNG you'll roll 1-3 for the level of the change, and 1-6 for the change itself, or if you want, pick your own based on what you wanted to do.

1)  Small Change: The flap of a butterfly's wings can cause tsunami's on the other side of the world.

-1: "A minute too late"- What if you missed something by a minute, or more? You missed the big meeting, the girl, helping that person, all because you were too late, what happens next?
-2: "The nick of time"- Just like the first, only that instead of missing something you got, that if you got something you missed because you were either too late, or just messed up? Congratulations! Let's just hope it's what you really wanted.
-3: "A little too early"- One more, what if you showed up early? It's suppose to be a good thing, is it this time?
-4: "The other choice"- You had two choices, left or right, heads or tails, Coke or Pepsi, now you get to see what would have happened with the other choice.
-5: "Oops!"- You slipped up, and made a mistake. Is it bad, or a blessing in disguise?
-6: Wild card/Pick your own- Thought of a slight change that'd make all the difference, or had one you wanted to play? Here's your chance.

2)  Medium Change: Didn't really see that coming, did you?

-1: Turning point change- That one thing that would have turned things in your favor went against you, and vice versa. How will you handle this critical change?
-2: "A Razor's edge"- That one moment that could have went either way has gone the opposite way of before. Is this a good thing, or a bad thing?
-3: Crossroads- You reached a point in your life where you had several choices before you, now's the time to go down another road and see where it leads.
-4: The Road less traveled- "Two roads diverged in the woods, and I took the one less traveled" Will it make all the difference?
-5: Interference- Something blocked you from getting something you were going for. What do you do once the moment is gone?
-6: Wild Card/Pick your own-Thought of a medium change that'd make all the difference, or had one you wanted to play? Here's your chance.

3)  Large Change: Why do all the people here have goatee's?

-1: Good/Evil- Use to be a good guy? Welcome to the dark side, here's your cookie. Former bad guy? Hand over the cookie tray and join the side of good. How will the change of moral compass change you?
-2: A different person- You're now a completely different person, literally. Are you taller? Shorter? A robot? A pony? Powers? No powers? Your call.
-3: The other sex- Rule!63 is in effect. Now how does this effect your relationships with the other?
-4: A change in history- Something that happened in the past now has completely change or is now gone. One domino toppling the rest. Now that you've changed your past, how will it effect your future?
-5: Giving up- You walked away from something important to you? Do you regret it? Are you happy?
-6: Wild Card/Pick your own- Thought of a large change that'd make all the difference, or had one you wanted to play? Here's your chance.

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"Wu..." Duo tried, he was going to reach out, but before he could Debbie was back again. All smiles and happily delivering her cakes. They were nearly wrapped and placed in a paper bag for them to take home with them.

"Now you two don't be strangers, y'hear?" she wagged a finger at Duo in warning and then turned to Wufei. "I expect you to knock some more sense into the boy! Teach him that leaving his friends behind is bad." she pouted, but there was a teasing light in her eyes. "Now you two go on home and have a great rest of the night!" she winked, playful and laughingly walked away before Duo had the chance to splutter and tell her off.

She smiled at him, a little sadly, but brightened it up for Debbie. "Oh, we won't," she promised. "And his sense is all in there, it just needs a little rearranging," she teased right back, and slid out of her chair when she walked away.

"She's not expecting us to accept the entire meal for free, is she?" Wufei asked, since a bill hadn't been dropped with the cake, and she fished her wallet out of a pocket. She had no idea what the normal price was, but she knew very well what it was worth, and put a couple bills on the table.

"Probably does, but that never stops me." Duo had also pulled out his own wallet and added a few more bills on top of the others with a smile. He grabbed the paper bag, waved to Debbie and held his hand out for Wufei before he lead the way back out to where he'd left his truck.

Wufei bobbed her head at Debbie as Duo waved, her hand sliding into his as if they'd been doing it for years, and she followed him to the truck. "This was lovely," she said warmly as they stepped out into the evening air. "I can see why you like the place so much. Good food, good people, maybe the occasional scuffle if the scratches in the floorboards are to be believed," she grinned, walking with him to the truck. The evening would be a nice counterpoint to what she was about to put them through, something they could hang onto, to remember that things were better now.

"Hah oh yeah, fights break out now and again. Cian usually puts a stop to it quick enough but they happen." He grinned and, once they reached the truck, he opened Wufei's door before he headed around to the drivers side and climbed in.

"I'm really glad you liked it here." He said with a happy sigh once be was settled in. "Kinda worried you wouldn't. Guess that was silly, huh? But just wait till you try this cake. It'll blow your mind!" he twisted around and put the paper bag on the back seat before turning back to start the engine.

She climbed up into the truck and buckled herself in, letting out a happy sigh as she relaxed into the seat. "I'm sure it will," she agreed warmly. "But now you've got me curious... what kind of places do you think I like?" She was amused that he thought she wouldn't like a spacer bar, though she could understand it. She'd relied heavily on propriety and tradition during the war, distanced herself with feigned arrogance, acted like she was better than them when really, she'd just been scared.

They'd all been, she assumed. A bunch of kids thrown into a war they had no business being a part of. The whole thing was madness, but it had been necessary. She reached for his hand again, without even thinking about it.

Duo laughed. "I'll be honest, I've no idea. That's the problem. I didn't know, but I'm learning.". And it was kind of nice, learning new things about Wufei, learning what she liked and didn't like. And when her hand found his again he was happy to take it, threading his fingers with hers. He even went ahead and brought it over to rest upon his thigh as he started the truck and started the drive for home.

"Well, at this rate I'm going to learn as much about myself as you are. I'd never thought to try a place like this, but it was a wonderful surprise, and promises to be again when I wake up in the middle of the night craving chocolate," she teased lightly, turning her head to watch him drive, to catch his profile changing under the street lamps. "I suppose I'll have to plan our next date, take you somewhere that you can try something new," and hope he liked it. She did tend to prefer quieter places, and despite how loud Duo could be, she knew he appreciated the quiet, too. "Have you ever gone hiking? For recreation, I mean."

"So this was a date, huh?" Again he'd not wanted to assume, but he'd still wanted to show her a good time. If they'd said it was an official date before hand maybe he would have gone to a bit more effort, or at least arranged a little extra excitement.

"Cant say I've gone hiking for fun. But I'm open to it. That something you like doing, Wu?" it wasn't something he was against at all. Running for fun was something that baffled him. But a nice walk in nature? He could enjoy that.

She shrugged. "It felt like what I imagined one would," she replied with a little smile, letting her thumb slide along the back of his hand. "Maybe not as excessively romantic as the ones in movies, but I've never been terribly fond of going over the top."

She chuckled at his reply. "Three or four times a year, I'll go out into the wilderness for a weekend. Usually when I'm waiting for internal affairs to clear me after a complaint, since I'm not allowed in the gym during the waiting periods," so she couldn't just fight her way to a clear head, and she'd opted for nature hikes as an alternative.

"Glad it wasn't just me then." He'd felt it himself but, again, hadn't wanted to push for anything Wufei wasn't comfortable with. He'd thought if he was going to ask Wufei out he'd be more clear on it. But this was fine too.

"Well..." Duo couldn't help laughing. "You wanna take me on a date to the thing you take your frustration out on? Sure sure, so long as that's not what we'll be doing?" he risked a quick glance over at Wufei. "It's for fun you wanna do it, right? I'm not driving you crazy already am I?"

She laughed warmly when he asked about the hiking. "Just for fun," she confirmed. "I don't exactly have a lot of hobbies that aren't for venting frustration, but most of it comes from work," or things that were no longer problems, thanks to Duo. "In fact, you're having the opposite effect. I've been so relaxed this week people are engaging me in small talk, and I haven't snapped at anyone all week. Not even Heero," it was a personal best.

Duo have her hand a little, happy squeeze, his smile widened. It made him feel pretty good to know that she'd been happy this last week.

"That's good. And better if we're doing it for fun." He smiled over for a second before turning his attention back to the road. "You do seem more relaxed. I can't take the credit for that though."

"You can take a little credit," she replied with a warm smile. "Most of it's because I don't have the threat of forced marriage to a complete stranger hanging over my head -- which reminds me, my dining room walls look a bit like investigation boards right now." So he wouldn't be totally taken aback when he saw it. "I used one wall for wedding things, and the other is... I used it to weigh my options, make sure that the choice I've made is the right one." Marrying Duo wasn't her only option, wasn't even the only option to avoid an arranged marriage, but it was by far the best one. "After we've talked, if you want me to go through the thought process with you, I'd be happy to. It looks a little chaotic."

Duo frowned but was good and kept his eyes on the road. "You're saying you made a board about me...?" he wasn't entirely sure he wanted to see something like that. Having all of his pros and cons laid bare was just a little too much to think about. Unless it was something else entirely. But the way she made it sound as unsettling.

"Did you come to a decision at least?" he asked instead.

"Not about you, exactly," she replied. "But my various options. You, the men my family had selected -- they emailed me biodata sheets on all of them," she rolled her eyes. "And the non-marriage options. Running away, faking my death," she waved her free hand dismissively, as if to encompass more options. "But yes, I came to the decision that my first instinct is, as usual, correct. Marrying you is the only option where I can see myself being happy long-term."

Assuming he still wanted her. She knew he would, that he wouldn't blame her, but knowing something and feeling it wasn't the same thing. She gave his hand a little squeeze. "You're the smart option, the safe one, but most importantly you're the one I want to take," she said it softly, like it was a secret. "I can't imagine feeling as safe with anyone else as I do with you."

He listened quietly, did his best to reserve judgment until she'd finished what she wanted to say. But it did little to help the dull ache building within his chest. Duo supposed she was right. He was the smart option. He was safe. He didn't expect anything from her really. All he wanted was for her to be happy.

So he smiled and nodded. Accepting the answer.

"And I'll keep being a safe place for you, Wu." Since that was really all he could offer her right now. A safe harbour away from the chaos.

"I know," she said, her voice smaller and quieter than it had ever been. She sighed quietly, squeezing his hand again. She knew, somewhere in her bones, that while he might react badly, he would still be there for her.

The gilt might just eat her alive, but they'd made up their minds. She would see it through and, maybe, with enough work, she might one day actually be worthy of all the sacrifices he was making. Even if he claimed he wasn't. She knew, she could see how much he cared for her, and she wished she could just wave a wand and feel all the love for him that he deserved.

And made a mental note to call her therapist.

Duo held the hand in his a little tighter too, never enough to hurt, but more to stop himself from letting go and crashing his truck trying to hug her. The tone of her voice made him want to. But he couldn't risk it while they were driving so he decided to wait.

It wasn't long at all before Duo was pulling up outside of Wufei's apartment. It was quicker coming back with less traffic than getting there. So he parked up and shut the truck down. Then he twisted around to grab the cake.

"Don't suppose you've got coffee at your place? Or are you mainly a tea drinker?"

The grip made her smile, because she knew, she knew that her fears were irrational with him. That if anyone could understand that what happened to you didn't define you, it was him.

By the time they reached her apartment, she'd steeled herself for what was to come, and even had a smile for him when he let go of her hand. "I mostly drink tea, but I've got coffee on hand for guests. Been getting quite a few of those this week, too. Heero, Sally, even Une popped by yesterday. She had herself a good chuckle at my dining room," she flashed a grin as she hopped out of the truck and closed the door behind her, since he had the cake. She came around to meet him on the other side before heading in with him.

And true to her word, the walls were indeed reminiscent of investigation boards. On the larger one there were pictures of half a dozen Asian men, most of them at least twice her age, one who was pretty young and attractive, and not far from that one was a picture of Duo, a mechanic's jumper half on and tied around his waist, a tank top emerging from it, grease stains on his face and arms, clearly extremely focused on the section of Deathscythe he'd been working on at the time and utterly unaware of the camera. Down near the baseboard, as far from Duo's picture as it could get, was a piece of paper with Treize's name written on it. Every other person on that wall had a picture, except for him.

She pulled out a coffee maker from a cupboard, brand new that week, and started getting it ready to brew. "I've got arabica and Colombian beans. I have no idea what the difference is," she said as she showed him the two packages. Both were very fancy brands.

"No idea what the difference is either..." Duo muttered. He'd come in, put the cake on the dining table and then turned to stare at the board. It couldn't be helped. A little hint of insecurity had him looking at all the others and comparing himself to them. And if course he found himself lacking. In the end it was really down to Wufei and who she chose. But she'd already deemed him a safe bet, so hadn't she already chosen?

Trying to push away his insecurities, Duo made himself look away from the board to give Wufei a crooked smile. "Could have at least found a better picture of me? Didn't even get my good side."

"Then I'll use the one that's already open," she replied, putting the arabica back and scooping some Colombian into a paper filter, already in the top of the machine.

She glanced over when he spoke about the picture and grinned. "I thought every side was your good side," she replied lightly, and poured some water into the well before closing the coffee maker up and starting the machine up. "It's one of my few pictures from during the war, and my favorite of you. It'd been ten hours, trying to get a tiny bit of conduit to stay in place. It wasn't even rated for being in an MS at all, but it was what we had and you were determined to make it work. It was the day I started to understand who you are."

Wufei stepped away from the coffee pot to stand next to him, sliding a hand up his back absently. "I finally realized you were more than a bright smile and endless strings of nonsense words. And I finally noticed how handsome you are."

"A stubborn dumbass?" Duo asked with a grin. He vaguely remembered that day but didn't remember getting his picture taken. Wufei must have taken it while he wasn't paying attention.

Like now. He wasn't paying attention until it was too late and Wufei was beside him. Her hand on his back. It was an intimate kind of touch and almost enough for Duo to want to pull away. But he didn't. He remained rooted to the spot while trying to work out where this was coming from. Wufei thought he was handsome? Since even back then? But...she didn't have feelings for him, never had. Unless it was just objectively speaking. That made more sense to Duo. Sense enough that he was able to relax and then laugh. "Nah, you were right the first time. I'm not that deep, Wu. What you see is what you get." Usually... At least it was what he wanted people to see. What he preferred them to. No one ever bothered to scratch a little more below the surface to find out who he really was.

"Thank goodness your brain isn't in your ass then," she replied lightly, and shook her head a little at his reply, and letting out a long sigh. "But I suppose I should just say what needs to be said."

She slid her hand away, turning to face him and taking a moment to gather her strength. "Last time you were here, I lied to you. I told you I'd slept with Treize, because I wanted you to know that I'm not a virgin, to not wonder why there would be no blood on our wedding night. I..." She swallowed heavily, dropped her gaze. "I'm ashamed. I know that there's no cause, that nothing was... but feelings are rarely logical."

She took a deep breath to steady herself, curled her hands into fists to hide the way they were trembling. Reluctantly, she lifted her gaze to Duo and seemed, for a moment, to fight with the words, like they were stuck in her throat. "He... He raped me." She nearly choked on the words, dropping her gaze and lowering her head as she struggled to stop herself from trembling. "I'm sorry."

"Can't work out if you were calling me smart there or that I have a nice ass." Duo joked, though the tone soon turned and soon he was left just standing there and staring down at Wufei in shock.

Treize had... He'd hurt her in such a way? An ice cold feeling filled him as he came at that knowledge from all sides. Poking at it in quiet contemplation. Because what he was feeling was a cold rage that he was struggling to keep in check. There was no outlet for it, Treize was dead. Long dead. Karma had come for him with interest.

But the rage fled in the face of Wufei apologising.

Duo wasn't sure if he should after being told such a thing, but he couldn't have stopped himself if he'd tried. He'd reached out for Wufei and pulled her against his chest before he'd even realised that he'd moved.

"You don't ever have to apologise. That bastard had no right to put his hands on you. And it wasn't your fault he did. He was...evil." Evil and cruel. The destroyer of all things good in this world.

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